Into Me You See

That is exactly what life is! A cycle  that never ends. No matter how much you think you have surpassed the past you find yourself going through the same motions over and over again... And I say this because today I was going through my work email, and I came across and email that I sent myself in 2007... FOUR years ago! And it was a piece of writing that I had written in that moment. Reading it brought me back to then, yet it reflected somewhat where I am now. Crazy, I thought to myself. How is it that with all that has passed and all that I've experienced I am still in the same place?! Could it be that, instead of moving forward, I moved in a circle? Or could it be that I didn't move at all? That I was still stuck in the same place ... both physically and mentally? So confusing that's what this all is! I figured I will share the piece of writing that has me feeling this way. Enjoy! Caught up in the drama… The one I always try to steer away from. Don’t want to get

To fall head over heels love with all your heart yet don't know how to let go once they decide to part? To forgive and forget the many tears shed to accept that fact that maybe you were misled? ... ... ... ... ... I find myself struggling with letting go ... Six years, two kids and memories to last infinity and beyond... Many are quick to say "I told you so" Put yourself in my shoes and see if You can make it past the feelings that don't' belong... Lost. Empty & Alone. Is it possible?

1st day of April! Starting the countdown for many things... One in particular ... My 30th Birthday at the end of this month! To think about it is to feel another gray hair coming out! (Yes, I have a few of those already!) Some may say it's the stress, but I want to refer to them as a proof of living ... of allowing myself to experience the good with the bad. I am not sure how to feel about entering a new decade in a matter of weeks ... I mean, changes are about the only permanent things in one's life... Yet, I'm overwhelmed by just the number 30 ! That's normal though, right? To think that just maybe I am not where I should be with myself is scary in itself. I mean, looking back to where I came from, I've come a long way, but at the same time I've managed to remain the same person ... I've been known to be called "Revolucion" ... a revolution ... bringing about a change in everything that I do. Allowing myself to transform into who I am ne