Embracing changes ...

1st day of April!
Starting the countdown for many things...
One in particular ... My 30th Birthday at the end of this month!
To think about it is to feel another gray hair coming out! (Yes, I have a few of those already!) Some may say it's the stress, but I want to refer to them as a proof of living ... of allowing myself to experience the good with the bad.
I am not sure how to feel about entering a new decade in a matter of weeks ... I mean, changes are about the only permanent things in one's life... Yet, I'm overwhelmed by just the number 30! That's normal though, right?

To think that just maybe I am not where I should be with myself is scary in itself. I mean, looking back to where I came from, I've come a long way, but at the same time I've managed to remain the same person ...

I've been known to be called "Revolucion" ... a revolution ... bringing about a change in everything that I do. Allowing myself to transform into who I am needed to be in each situation I find myself in. Now, I just have to find the inner strength in me to just flow with the fact that maybe turning 30 will be the revolution in myself ... exploring what's out there and finding myself, and not holding back on any changes that may come out in the process.

So -
Come on 30'ies ... Bring it on!

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Oops! I did it again...

I went and did a Britney.
No, I did not have a meltdown, though at times I feel as though I am on the verge one.
Stress does it to you; It is a natural part of being a human - it's unavoidable.

According to google:

stress stres/ noun 1. a state of mental or emotional strain or tension resulting from adverse or very demanding circumstances. "she's obviously under a lot of stress" synonyms:strain, pressure, (nervous) tension, worry, anxiety, trouble, difficulty; informalhassle "she's under a lot of stress
A few weeks ago, while on Pinterest during lunch, I searched short hair cuts.
Yes, I was thinking of going short again.
One of the reasons being that I had chunks of hair falling out on a daily basis. Seeing those chunks caused my stress levels to increase.

You now probably figured out what I did.
If you guessed, cut my hair off, then you are correct.
I scheduled the appointment and didn't think about it twice.

Oh how liberating it was to feel the weight being…

Reflections

I look away but not before stealing a glimpse of the reflection staring back Sad brown eyes full of pain and sorrow lies of yesterday and worries of tomorrow unanswered questions prancer in my head like ballerina dancers pirouetting in never ending circles challenging who I was then and who I am now at one point young and naive so quick to believe and so easy to deceive falling for everything and yet now everything is falling apart. a part of then still lingers within and mingles with what has become and no one knows what it really is things aren't always what they seem to be too caught up to really see the turmoil inside of me.

This is me ...

Hola! For those who don’t know me, I am Yvette! I am a mother, wife, daughter, sister, aunt, friend, but most importantly, I am ME. I have a love for reading and writing, long walks, and taking pictures. I am a family type of girl, meaning my family comes before anything and everything. Family – the ones meant to love and be there for you through it all. Because you don’t walk out on family, even when they walk out on you. They say it’s taboo to talk about domestic violence and sexual assault, yet it happens. I won’t say I am a victim, but I will say I am a survivor. I am not what has happened to me. I am what I choose to become. Life has been a bit rough, but it has also given me many blessings. I’ve learned to smile through the tears, and appreciate the gift of love. I’ve learned to be strong even when I’ve had every reason to crumble. I have fallen, but like Maya, I will continue to rise.

Into Me You See

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